when there’s no happy ending

Christmas is just weeks away but honestly, doesn’t feel like it. Anyway, I came across the lyrics of ‘Happy ending’ by Ayumi Hamasaki and what a sad song. For those who can’t understand Nihonggo, the meaning revolves around the incapacity to be happy. Happiness, according to the song, is a mere mask. Quite cynical huh? Yonde kudasai, douzo:

tachikomeru kumo sukima nuu you ni
hoshitachi ga semegiau
sakebi ni mo nita
inori no you na kagayaki ga
mune wo shimetsukeru

asa yo douka watashi wo hayaku mukae ni kite
yowasa wo kakushikirenaku naru mae ni

anata ga inai dake de konna ni
yoru ga samishii nante fushigi ne

ato dono kurai onaji you na
tsumi wo okashite kurikaeshitara

watashi wa hito de nakunatte shimau no darou
dare no me ni mo utsuranaku naru no darou

korogaru you ni nigekonda basho ni
hoshii mono no nante nai
kokoro kara kanjou dake wo hagitotte
kamen ni egao haritsukeru
douka konna toko kara watashi wo tsuresatte
subete ga omoide ni naru mae ni

anata to deai hito wo ai suru
imi wo sukoshi shitta ki ga shita
itsuka tsugunaikireta toshitara
yurusareru hi ga yatte kita nara

dakedo imasara shiawase no teigi nante
kataru shikaku nado doko ni mo nokotte’nai

Come to think of it, are we all meant to have happy endings? Aaargh..now the meaning of the song is already bugging me. Oh well, have too much in my mind to comprehend clearly..really sad.

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